It's because of, and as soon as I would think about what it you know, think about that situation, I would feel the adrenaline, I would feel that desperation, I would feel the sort of like heart racing and I'd be like, wait a minute, that's anxiety, that's not being sick, that's anxiety. I do not have emetophobia anymore, and I had it hardcore for a very long time and I don't anymore, and I haven't thrown up and I haven't like I haven't.