When you really feel that you want to be someone that doesn't drink alcohol, you know you could be there thinking: no, I desperately want this, but when it comes down to it, you might not really really want it as much as you think you want it and you might not be as ready as you think you are as ready and the big one- you might not have the required self-belief and self-esteem that it takes to invest in yourself, to actually make a change.