I think drinking just kind of dulled my senses, dulled my vision, um, made me feel maybe not very good about myself, cause I couldn't control it. I think my, you know, my daughter and my mom will tell me, even though you know you don't see the changes in yourself. Do you know if I've had a few glasses of wine and she does something that pisses me off? This, whatever it is that I'm bringing to that relationship in particular, is good, right, it's positive, and it's, and it is an absolute night and day.