Nancy H.: Embracing Surrender and Finding Faith in Recovery
My surrender muscle won't work, right, it won't work, it won't give up. And then you know, as life happens, I return to the first step.
Imagine grappling with late-onset alcoholism and then, just as you manage to quit drinking, an eating disorder takes its place. That's the story Nancy H. shares in episode #66 of the 'Big Book Awakening' podcast. Nancy's journey is one of surrender, struggle, and ultimately, spiritual awakening. She candidly recounts how it took her a full year to accept that she was an alcoholic. But her battle didn't end there.
Giving up sugar proved even tougher, feeling like 'having her skin burned off alive'. Yet, through these challenges, Nancy sees the hand of her higher power guiding her life. One key lesson from Nancy's story is the concept of daily surrender. She explains how initially, she thought she could pick and choose which parts of the Twelve Steps program to follow.
This selective approach led her astray until she realized the importance of returning to the basics and asking for divine guidance each morning. Another significant aspect of Nancy's journey is her struggle with belief. She talks about the doubts she had when she first joined the program and how finding her higher power felt like getting on a highway—suddenly, everything started to make sense. Nancy's experiences offer valuable insights for anyone facing addiction.
Her story underscores the importance of letting go of control and embracing a higher power for true recovery. Tune in to hear Nancy's inspiring tale and discover how the Twelve Steps program can lead to profound personal transformation.