I found that I am capable of doing anything that I put my mind to, and before it was like: no matter how hard I try, shit's just not going to work for me. But as I got sober and as I started to see myself, one of the things that came up, which is if I'm not the fuck up, if I'm not the black sheep and if I'm not the one causing trouble or saying rude shit- or you know what I mean- like, if I'm not the one just always doing that- then who will I be?