I have always been very driven and I have always had a goal, and like was always going for it. Of course, it wouldn't be because it sounds like a good life. But you know, when you give your whole fucking life to something and it doesn't happen for you, and I'm not saying it hasn't happened for you, like I said, a lot of good things have happened, but I think, like it doesn't just live up to that thing that you had in your head.