I've kind of accepted that, that you know, I was probably going to die as an addict. And looking for positives and things, and and but now that I've come to elevate and I've and I've ran the program and, and you know, I've advanced myself within the company and in my personal life and and things like that, you know that the very headstrong attitude that I have of of just stubborn positivity, you know, is now it's, it's real, you know, it's like some real deal, stuff of me always being positive and stubborn, positive, stubborn.