Alcohol had taken over, completely consumed him, and that is where I'm like. So if I've been sober for Five, I mean three of those were still very, very difficult, that I've been able to kind of process things with my father a little bit, and it's been, and I have more people, people that I talk to like this is something that I hear a lot is that there is things that happen when they're kids, and it doesn't have to be physical abuse, you know, mental, emotional, all that kind of stuff.