Addicts are the most powerful people in the world, because we all will stop at nothing to get what we want. And when what you want is drugs, it just drives you to the ground. Now, sober and other events, just not even circuit parties, just parties. But I am still an addict and like it still came with so much chaos and just this whole game of like: oh, I want to do enough to feel good at the party, but not enough that I'm upset with myself.