I guess, maybe I feel like I'm supposed to be happy all the time. Obviously, I just realized that just now. That light bulb- I don't know if y 'all heard it, but clink. So yeah, wow, okay, it's just that that dark place for me is really really dark, and I'm sure it's dark for you too. And I certainly cannot go back there and stay there. I'm just going to keep talking this through until maybe I can figure it out.