Colleen Q.'s Guide to Steps 8 and 9: Making Amends with Heart

So I fly down to Florida and I get this rental car and we have this appointment to meet at the bank. And in those conversations they're telling me, like, were you willing to show up and suit up and were you willing to make the immense? So then I go to make this amends and he is in a fishing tournament. I'm going down the elevator at this hotel and I walk across the parking lot and I walk out that front door and literally, as I am walking across the street, I felt pounds of shame and guilt and fear and self-hatred, and all of these ugly, ugly things literally lift from me, like I felt like I was pounds lighter as the time by the time I crossed that street, and it was just such an amazing experience for me personally.