Jordan's Journey: From Self-Resentment to Spiritual Awakening
Episode Overview
Jordan discusses his journey through self-resentment. He explores how his upbringing influenced his emotional health. The inventory process helped him identify deep-seated resentments. A spiritual awakening played a crucial role in his recovery. Reaching out to his absent father marked a significant step in his healing.
I realised I had a resentment toward myself. I could feel the stress writing myself down on that paper.
In this episode of 'Ashes To Rubies: Addiction To Connection', Jordan opens up about his journey through self-resentment and the profound realisations that came with it. Raised in a household where emotions were either suppressed or explosively expressed, Jordan learned early on to bottle up his feelings. This led to deep-seated resentments, particularly towards his absent father and emotionally turbulent mother. However, the most surprising resentment he discovered was towards himself.
As he worked through his inventory process, Jordan realised that his quest for power and control was a misguided attempt to fill the void left by his childhood traumas. His addiction gave him a false sense of power, but it was fleeting and destructive. Through a spiritual awakening and the inventory process, he began to see the true impact of his actions and the importance of letting go of self-will.
One of the most moving parts of his story is his decision to reach out to his biological father, an act that symbolised a significant step in his healing journey. By sharing his vulnerabilities and struggles, Jordan offers hope and encouragement to those grappling with similar issues. His story is a testament to the power of self-reflection, spiritual growth, and the importance of community in recovery.
If you're looking for an honest, raw, and ultimately uplifting account of overcoming self-resentment, this episode is a must-listen.