Agent X's Take on Cravings and Control in Alcoholism
The idea that somehow someday I will control and enjoy running my life is a great obsession of every recovered alcoholic, because Today I know for a fact that when I'm controlling my life and the life of others, I'm not enjoying it and that the gifts of not controlling my life and living this evidence of a life run on god's will.
What drives an alcoholic to crave control? In this episode of 'That's NOT in the book!', Agent X dives into pages 30 and 31 of Alcoholics Anonymous' Big Book. He breaks down the concept of alcoholism and the relentless craving that accompanies it. But it doesn't stop there. Agent X also highlights the importance of AA's steps and the pivotal role of sponsorship in the recovery journey.
A memorable quote from Agent X encapsulates the episode's core: 'The idea that somehow someday I will control and enjoy running my life is a great obsession of every recovered alcoholic, because today I know for a fact that when I'm controlling my life and the life of others, I'm not enjoying it and that the gifts of not controlling my life and living this evidence of a life run on god's will.' This episode is packed with raw reflections and practical advice, making it a compelling listen for anyone navigating their own recovery or supporting someone who is.
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