I used to feel very powerful and I felt like the light had gone out inside of me, that that special sparkliness that's inside of me was gone, was faded and I didn't know if I would ever get it back and I didn't know how to get it back. Now our loved ones have to do that on their own right. But what I can help you with is how to feel better and how to get hopeful and to come up with that strategy that will get you to a better place, because that I did figure out and I got to a place that was so amazingly good.