My physical body is messed up until I get right spiritually. It's just when I'm suffering from the spiritual malady. I am in collision with you guys, like all the time, and there's there's a cycle to this thing right, and it talks about it in the, in the doctor's opinion that, like it, starts with the first drink and I put it in my body and the allergy takes over, the phenomenon of craving kicks in and I don't know when I'm going to stop.