I was sober, but just fucked up emotionally. I wasn't sleeping. I wasn't eating. I lost a lot of weight. And I came in, the guy that was my sponsor this past couple of years, he picked me out of the meeting. He'd seen me a couple of times and he was just like, do you want to fucking die? You know, and he was like, how about, you know, I see you coming in here, dude, and you're strung the fuck out, dude. Like, you're fucked up. You're, this is, if you want some help, if you want to do this thing, man, we can do it.