Redefining Faith: Jamie's Journey from Conformity to Personal Worship
I honestly believed, like I'm going to lead him to Jesus, I'm going to save him. And yeah, we both ended up with the right person and he didn't turn out to go to seminary or anything. No, he's definitely still agnostic, and what's funny is like on the other side, I'm like, I totally see his point.
What happens when the faith you grew up with no longer feels right? In this episode of 'Discovering Our Scars', Steph and Beth sit down with Jamie Kocur, author of 'My CCM Soundtracked Life: How I Became Disillusioned With the Music That Once Captivated Me'. Jamie shares her unique journey from being a devout listener of Contemporary Christian Music (CCM) to questioning her faith and finding a more personal form of worship.
Growing up, Jamie only listened to CCM and avoided secular music, which made her quietly judgmental. Her perspective shifted dramatically after working with the African Children's Choir, where she experienced a spontaneous and heartfelt style of worship that was a stark contrast to the manufactured happiness she felt back home. This disconnect led Jamie to reevaluate her beliefs and the notion that becoming a Christian guarantees constant happiness.
The conversation dives into why Christians are often defined by what they oppose rather than what they support. Jamie also discusses how writing her book served as a tool for self-discovery, helping her work through her thoughts and feelings. This episode is a raw and honest dialogue that invites listeners to reflect on their own spiritual journeys and consider what truly brings them closer to their faith.