Once, once, I smashed the delusions, you know with the help of this program, I didn't smash it once, once my higher power in this program and everything smashed the delusions that I, that my life revolved around getting fucked up every day, I could, I started to realize that I could break other kinds of delusions too right, that I could manipulate my way to happiness in a relationship, that I can manipulate another person to be the person I wanted them to be in a relationship, whether it was romantic or friendship or family.