I lost my faith... I was lost, blind. I lost my way, I did... I just lost hope and blamed my dad. Bernie didn't need no help. No, I wasn't. My life was unmanageable already... I just lost it. I totally lost it. No one should have known how I give my, that's my goodnight kiss to my kids, basically. And this man knew it and blew me away. So as the trolley takes off, I'm staring at him because I'm shocked. And I'm walking towards the trolley, towards the back to continue staring at this man because I'm shocked. I'm like, man, what just happened? This U-Haul truck passed by. And all of a sudden, this truck passed by him. The man disappeared. he couldn't have gone anywhere you you can look down the street to the right to the left up there's no way i he could have just disappeared like that and even the family that were staring at me and staring at him the daughter goes mom where did that man go and um the lady said, Man, I think this guy was heading to somewhere not good. And I don't know, it looked like a guardian angel. I think it was a guardian angel that, you know, talk about spiritual awakening. You know, so four days later, I made the best decision ever. As of today, matter of fact, today is 11 months. Next month will be a year sober and clean. Thank God, you know. And, you know, I had to surrender my life because I was just sick and tired of being tired.